Crystal Clear

Isn’t it funny how sometimes, everything seems so crystal clear? You just know what’s up, what you gotta do, that you’re just GOING and not thinking about it? When I’m in such a state of mind, I search for ways to stay there, and I’m telling myself to write down all the positive stuff that I’m thinking at such times. Because even though, at that point, my whole beingness on this planet is so obvious, there is a deep sense that this field of wisdom will me by again. Even though the feeling is so energetic and intense and solid, a fear remains that I will lose “it” again. Thus, I desperately write down quotes and insights that I have, laying out reminders for my future self, already anticipating on the times that I know that will come, too, when I “forgot” again. Days where I am less energetic, perhaps a bit down even you could say. Happily, I can confidently say that I’ve progressed in the way I go about these more blunt days. Whereas before, I wasted soo much energy on thinking why and how come I was feeling low, and forcefully tried to solve this “problem”, now I know better. I know -and truly know, which means I don’t have to convince myself of it anymore- that these feelings are natural. Everything is changing, always. Just as the tides of the ocean, our emotional states are in flux, moving in and out, up, and down. And that’s perfectly fine. It is unrealistic to expect to feel on a high every day. If you think about it, it wouldn’t even be possible. How would we ever know that we are on a high if we didn’t have the lows? How could we tell? It wouldn’t be possible. It’s the contrast between the two that makes us able to experience them. It’s what makes every experiemce possible, even. So, bottom line: don’t feel bad about the bad days, they won’t last forever. Just observe your feelings and emotions, casually, not so much interested. This way, they won’t mean much for you and won’t be disruptive to your “life”, or state of being, so much. It’s all about how much you let them. You have this power, and truly realizing that makes way for tremendous growth and most of all, leaves you with so much energy.